The Letter

It starts with a nod
I told you my thoughts
All those boiled-up memories
that swelled in my heart
It ends and is lost
You told me your thoughts
I'm just a harmless child
with no room to talk

I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner
I was taught to be stronger
Raised to have no fear
So I didn't know what to tell you
when the depression started that year

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And you taught me well
I've never been one to give up
I never wanted to be that girl
But I'm afraid all these hopeless months
have made me grow bitter
So I thought I'd write you this little song
It seems nothing wants to get better
Here's this to you
The start to my little suicide letter
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The days go by slowly
Desperation leaks through this smile
But perhaps you haven't noticed
I mean, have you ever?
After all,
I must be like all the others
My pain isn't real
All I really want is attention
Isn't that right, father and mother?

What do I have to do
to make you believe?
Kill myself, so you'll finally see?
So go ahead,
make me your martyr
I mean far more to you dead
then I could have ever while I breath

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I've never been one to give up
I never wanted to be that girl
But all these hopeless days
have caused my heart to grow bitter
So I sing this song
Because nothing will ever get better
Here's to you,
my little scribbled suicide letter
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I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm sorry, I know you've had enough
Sorry I couldn't be your little angel forever
And I'm sorry when I say I've given up

Because I never wanted to be that girl
I never wanted to be such a failure
But all these days have made me grow bitter

So I'm sorry that
things just couldn't get better
And I'm so sorry you were the parents
who had to read
this little crumpled up suicide letter